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2013 I give you 70/100
2013.. Summing it all up it was a rather shitty year for me. To be really honest, I cant remember much about how shitty but gosh can I tell you how I felt this past year. Not all is lost my friends… there were some good points to it too. (just sadly the bad is more than the good)
On the home front; I moved 2 times this year. From Danforth apt to Canterbury apt. when we found out there were bed bugs in the apt (my bedroom was there home) we then moved into a house with an acquaintance and then drama stemmed from that and I went from panic attacks and sleepless nights from bugs crawling over my body to wondering if I’m gonna have a home to come too… still not ok in that department but I’m picking my battles and I’m gonna make 2014 better.
On the body front/mental front; 2013 was a huge up and down for me. I lost weight and then gained it back and lost some and more came back. Im still down from my heaviest but my weight do to stress n such went up and down. 180 to 200 to 230 to 205 to 215 (then give or take a few pounds) this in addition to acne, hair loss, random cuts and bruises from work scaring up my body I haven’t had much self confidence… which screwed with my mind. The stress from working, the weight issues, the depression from those just turned me into a mess. I hated myself, I hated others, I hated everything… which made me sad then the sadness made me eat/not eat then that played into the weight loss/gain… and well… you see the circle it made…
On the job front; work sucks. I had such hope for BBB but its just proven to me that I need something else. And yes, I know it wasn’t something to desire but I thought I was good at something, and that they would want me because I was but watching others get promotions and more things than me just.. well.. pisses me off. And not to say that I don’t like these people, but just watching them get what I’ve been trying to get for 5 years is really aggravating. I then was forced to get another job… this one I really love. The people are great and it helps when they tell me things like I do a good job or you know.. the things that most employees what to hear when they do good. The dilemma is, BBB pays more and I tend to get more hours there, and BBW (the job I like) cant give me all the hours I need and they pay less.
On the love front; ....
On the friends/family front; family is good. Had a few health issues but those were cleared and/or being worked on. Friend front was a 50/50. I had some people leave my life with no reason. No goodbye or these are the reasons I don’t want to be friends with you. Just, they left. Which plays into my depression-symptoms… like, what did I do to them to make them just leave? Then I had friends distance themselves because of the people who left. Which also sucks…. BUT I did have some good friends come into my life. I had people ask me to be part of something that i’m still new at and they are willing to put up with me being a n00b. they have been a source of happy in that depressing time, and even when I didn’t show it, I really appreciated there support (and my other friends too)
I won an award with my cosplay work and gosh that boosted my confidence in the things I do. It wasn’t anything big but getting that little pat on the ass really lit a fire. I’m more inspired to do work. Not so much at the moment but I really want to get going on new things~
2013, I give you a 70/100. My hopes for 2014? A better job(s) Work my health and body. Not worry about love, if it happens it happens. Sit down and work on cosplay with my EastBlue family. Spend more time with family no matter how much my mom drives me crazy (I do love her though) Find a better home where it feels like a home. Mostly get my mess of a life on track really. Its not gonna be easy but I’m tired of being a loser… I want to win. I hope the friends that have stuck with me this year continue to do so. i have so much to offer and most haven’t seen me at my best. once i get my footing I will be much better. the old Kara is still under here, shes just a bit sad and defeated and needs a bit to recover, but with a kinda fresh start in 2014 she’ll be back full force! (still just a pale as ever!)
2013.. Summing it all up it was a rather shitty year for me. To be really honest, I cant remember much about how shitty but gosh can I tell you how I felt this past year. Not all is lost my friends… there were some good points to it too. (just sadly the bad is more than the good)
On the home front; I moved 2 times this year. From Danforth apt to Canterbury apt. when we found out there were bed bugs in the apt (my bedroom was there home) we then moved into a house with an acquaintance and then drama stemmed from that and I went from panic attacks and sleepless nights from bugs crawling over my body to wondering if I’m gonna have a home to come too… still not ok in that department but I’m picking my battles and I’m gonna make 2014 better.
On the body front/mental front; 2013 was a huge up and down for me. I lost weight and then gained it back and lost some and more came back. Im still down from my heaviest but my weight do to stress n such went up and down. 180 to 200 to 230 to 205 to 215 (then give or take a few pounds) this in addition to acne, hair loss, random cuts and bruises from work scaring up my body I haven’t had much self confidence… which screwed with my mind. The stress from working, the weight issues, the depression from those just turned me into a mess. I hated myself, I hated others, I hated everything… which made me sad then the sadness made me eat/not eat then that played into the weight loss/gain… and well… you see the circle it made…
On the job front; work sucks. I had such hope for BBB but its just proven to me that I need something else. And yes, I know it wasn’t something to desire but I thought I was good at something, and that they would want me because I was but watching others get promotions and more things than me just.. well.. pisses me off. And not to say that I don’t like these people, but just watching them get what I’ve been trying to get for 5 years is really aggravating. I then was forced to get another job… this one I really love. The people are great and it helps when they tell me things like I do a good job or you know.. the things that most employees what to hear when they do good. The dilemma is, BBB pays more and I tend to get more hours there, and BBW (the job I like) cant give me all the hours I need and they pay less.
On the love front; ....
On the friends/family front; family is good. Had a few health issues but those were cleared and/or being worked on. Friend front was a 50/50. I had some people leave my life with no reason. No goodbye or these are the reasons I don’t want to be friends with you. Just, they left. Which plays into my depression-symptoms… like, what did I do to them to make them just leave? Then I had friends distance themselves because of the people who left. Which also sucks…. BUT I did have some good friends come into my life. I had people ask me to be part of something that i’m still new at and they are willing to put up with me being a n00b. they have been a source of happy in that depressing time, and even when I didn’t show it, I really appreciated there support (and my other friends too)
I won an award with my cosplay work and gosh that boosted my confidence in the things I do. It wasn’t anything big but getting that little pat on the ass really lit a fire. I’m more inspired to do work. Not so much at the moment but I really want to get going on new things~
2013, I give you a 70/100. My hopes for 2014? A better job(s) Work my health and body. Not worry about love, if it happens it happens. Sit down and work on cosplay with my EastBlue family. Spend more time with family no matter how much my mom drives me crazy (I do love her though) Find a better home where it feels like a home. Mostly get my mess of a life on track really. Its not gonna be easy but I’m tired of being a loser… I want to win. I hope the friends that have stuck with me this year continue to do so. i have so much to offer and most haven’t seen me at my best. once i get my footing I will be much better. the old Kara is still under here, shes just a bit sad and defeated and needs a bit to recover, but with a kinda fresh start in 2014 she’ll be back full force! (still just a pale as ever!)
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Contest
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Gosh I hope I win~ 
it would be a nice birthday gift for me <3
it would be a nice birthday gift for me <3(like ponies? enter too!)
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Devious Journal Entry
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I guess purhaps a update?
A few things have happened since I last updated I think *lol*
The wonderful cosplayers at East Blue Cosplay invited myself and my friends Pathfinder and Miss Lady to join them. It was a opportunity we actually had to think about for a bit before accepting it.
For me personally it was a chance for a fresh start in cosplaying. In learning to sew, to prop making, to wig styling to makeup.
I have been and will forever be grateful for the help that I got from everyone for making things for me, for teaching me what they know or just being there with me. I wear my cosplays with pride and knowing that someone cared enough to help me make this... I really hope that didnt come off as super cheesy... but its true. I have some great memories with some outfits and those will never fade...
But with my last cosplay group being more of a great group friends than an actual cosplay group, and seeing as the only 'group's we all ever did was Homestuck and Persona 3 I really wanted to be in a group that did group things.
I admit that with my no sewing skills it really didn't help the group dynamic with only 3 people being really able to sew having the burden of doing everyone's cosplays. it really took a toll on them. and for that I am sorry. I am sorry I wasn't able to help. I am sorry I was demanding with things I wanted. I'm sorry i put my feelings first when you were doing your best. I cannot undo those things, but i can try to be better at what I am doing now.
I hope this isn't coming off as a giant I'm sorry post or I'm trying to make little of my selfishness. I was a bad friend. I was and I am owning up to my mistakes publicly.
But I am doing my best to change myself. BW is always a part of me. BW was and is a group of great people who accepted me into the fold with open arms and I felt so welcome with them all. BW has grown too, we have all gone a bit from the path we all started to walk together but we haven't wandered too far. That's kinda how life is *lol* Everyone is still doing cosplays, still sewing, still watching anime... but just because we aren't all in the same room like we used to doesn't mean we aren't friends. I think we've all just kinda grown up a bit apart from everyone else.
With all that being said I have high hopes for whats to come. I'm excited to see BWs different cosplays at Anime Boston this year. I haven't seen update photos but i know they'll be great!
I'm excited to get some cosplays done with East Blue. We have so many ideas already. Emmacchi, Miss Lady and I already did a quick Adventure Time photoshoot when Emmacchi came up to visit us. Im planning on making a new outfit for Lady and perhaps another Adventure time person too.
I need to get my feet wet with some easy cosplays first before I jump into the harder ones so Im picking one or two for Otakon this year as well...
I think I went on for enough this post. I'll post more another day <3
A few things have happened since I last updated I think *lol*
The wonderful cosplayers at East Blue Cosplay invited myself and my friends Pathfinder and Miss Lady to join them. It was a opportunity we actually had to think about for a bit before accepting it.
For me personally it was a chance for a fresh start in cosplaying. In learning to sew, to prop making, to wig styling to makeup.
I have been and will forever be grateful for the help that I got from everyone for making things for me, for teaching me what they know or just being there with me. I wear my cosplays with pride and knowing that someone cared enough to help me make this... I really hope that didnt come off as super cheesy... but its true. I have some great memories with some outfits and those will never fade...
But with my last cosplay group being more of a great group friends than an actual cosplay group, and seeing as the only 'group's we all ever did was Homestuck and Persona 3 I really wanted to be in a group that did group things.
I admit that with my no sewing skills it really didn't help the group dynamic with only 3 people being really able to sew having the burden of doing everyone's cosplays. it really took a toll on them. and for that I am sorry. I am sorry I wasn't able to help. I am sorry I was demanding with things I wanted. I'm sorry i put my feelings first when you were doing your best. I cannot undo those things, but i can try to be better at what I am doing now.
I hope this isn't coming off as a giant I'm sorry post or I'm trying to make little of my selfishness. I was a bad friend. I was and I am owning up to my mistakes publicly.
But I am doing my best to change myself. BW is always a part of me. BW was and is a group of great people who accepted me into the fold with open arms and I felt so welcome with them all. BW has grown too, we have all gone a bit from the path we all started to walk together but we haven't wandered too far. That's kinda how life is *lol* Everyone is still doing cosplays, still sewing, still watching anime... but just because we aren't all in the same room like we used to doesn't mean we aren't friends. I think we've all just kinda grown up a bit apart from everyone else.
With all that being said I have high hopes for whats to come. I'm excited to see BWs different cosplays at Anime Boston this year. I haven't seen update photos but i know they'll be great!
I'm excited to get some cosplays done with East Blue. We have so many ideas already. Emmacchi, Miss Lady and I already did a quick Adventure Time photoshoot when Emmacchi came up to visit us. Im planning on making a new outfit for Lady and perhaps another Adventure time person too.
I need to get my feet wet with some easy cosplays first before I jump into the harder ones so Im picking one or two for Otakon this year as well...
I think I went on for enough this post. I'll post more another day <3
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Ya did it again Ka
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You signed up for 2 more years on this site again cause that damn buy a year get a year free BS..
GAH I get suckered in everytimeeeeee~
I need to like get someone to do a ton of photoshoots with me so i can get more pictures of my outfits on here to make it worth my freakin money ;A;
GAH I get suckered in everytimeeeeee~
I need to like get someone to do a ton of photoshoots with me so i can get more pictures of my outfits on here to make it worth my freakin money ;A;
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Life, Love and Friendship
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So I'm gonna be really really vague on things but things are going better and better.
I was feeling really really really down-in-the-dumps of late and I think I figured out why. Now that I'm aware of it, things are getting done.
Growing up sucks but its what has to be done. I think at this point in my life (Im a olddd 27) I need to kinda suck it up and BE an adult.
Not gonna give up cosplay and cons and anime (and other stuff) but I think its time to put real life in front of these things.
So don't worry people (im sure only like 3 people read this lol) the Ka you know and kinda sorta like will still be here, but just improved <3
I was feeling really really really down-in-the-dumps of late and I think I figured out why. Now that I'm aware of it, things are getting done.
Growing up sucks but its what has to be done. I think at this point in my life (Im a olddd 27) I need to kinda suck it up and BE an adult.
Not gonna give up cosplay and cons and anime (and other stuff) but I think its time to put real life in front of these things.
So don't worry people (im sure only like 3 people read this lol) the Ka you know and kinda sorta like will still be here, but just improved <3
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Oh hello kt by Hello-Kt-Cosplay, journal
Oh hello kt
2013 I give you 70/100
2013.. Summing it all up it was a rather shitty year for me. To be really honest, I cant remember much about how shitty but gosh can I tell you how I felt this past year. Not all is lost my friends… there were some good points to it too. (just sadly the bad is more than the good)
On the home front; I moved 2 times this year. From Danforth apt to Canterbury apt. when we found out there were bed bugs in the apt (my bedroom was there home) we then moved into a house with an acquaintance and then drama stemmed from that and I went from panic attacks and sleepless nights from bugs crawling over my body to won
Contest by Hello-Kt-Cosplay, journal
Contest
Gosh I hope I win~ :D it would be a nice birthday gift for me <3
http://www.deviantart.com/art/Summer-Plushie-Giveaway-381439366
(like ponies? enter too!)
Devious Journal Entry by Hello-Kt-Cosplay, journal
Devious Journal Entry
I guess purhaps a update?
A few things have happened since I last updated I think *lol*
The wonderful cosplayers at East Blue Cosplay invited myself and my friends Pathfinder and Miss Lady to join them. It was a opportunity we actually had to think about for a bit before accepting it.
For me personally it was a chance for a fresh start in cosplaying. In learning to sew, to prop making, to wig styling to makeup.
I have been and will forever be grateful for the help that I got from everyone for making things for me, for teaching me what they know or just being there with me. I wear my cosplays with pride and knowing that someone cared eno
Ya did it again Ka by Hello-Kt-Cosplay, journal
Ya did it again Ka
You signed up for 2 more years on this site again cause that damn buy a year get a year free BS..
GAH I get suckered in everytimeeeeee~
I need to like get someone to do a ton of photoshoots with me so i can get more pictures of my outfits on here to make it worth my freakin money ;A;
Life, Love and Friendship by Hello-Kt-Cosplay, journal
Life, Love and Friendship
So I'm gonna be really really vague on things but things are going better and better.
I was feeling really really really down-in-the-dumps of late and I think I figured out why. Now that I'm aware of it, things are getting done.
Growing up sucks but its what has to be done. I think at this point in my life (Im a olddd 27) I need to kinda suck it up and BE an adult.
Not gonna give up cosplay and cons and anime (and other stuff) but I think its time to put real life in front of these things.
So don't worry people (im sure only like 3 people read this lol) the Ka you know and kinda sorta like will still be here, but just improved <3